Eleanor's Bitch, Moan and Groan Thread

Nope, can't force anyone to do anything. Has to do it for himself. You can work on you though. That's all we have. That's all we can control. No point to go racing down the rabbit hole to "rescue" someone who doesn't want to be rescued. Doesn't work. Look at all the failed rehab situations. Similar deal. Have to quit for themselves or you can forget about it.


You already know that though. Being stuck in the same space , it grates on your nerves like no tomorrow.

Breathe in, breathe out and if he starts in on you, get out of the house. Go for a walk. Take in nature and don't focus on his crud. He will be there when you get back Ugh...but...it's a mental break from his bullcrap and psychic drain on your soul.

Too many little things, and the big things, and more little things...and pretty soon it's a mountain of chaos weighing a person down.

so...one little thing done..then the next. Not so bad

Yep, forgot about the negative tapes. Burn them. Worked through that in T. Wish I had the worksheets with me, somewhere around. I will look for them and get them up here.

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Neck and shoulders knotting up. I hear you on that. Take a look at Yoga online....helps to do some of those. When it's really bad, that's about the only thing that really helps. Or a massage. Like the remotest place on earth plan myself LOL.

the last bit would not ever freak this old battle ax out. lol...might join you though.

Breathe in Breathe out...go for a walk and get away from the soul drain. Helps.

Well, you are on a roll with the massage ideas! lol.

Breathing, I know, good thing it has been automatic these days or ... simply lifting out of the meat wagon sounds like a better way of dealing sometimes. *Bad thought* Just don['t want to deal with all the crap. Buuuut, that is not an option. So...carry on. One foot in front of the other. Can't stop. Nobody to pick up the pieces for me if I do.

Get some rocking tunes playing. Nothing lovey or sappy. Tends to bring me down the lovey stuff. Get some thrash or what ever you prefer. Moves my butt.

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Should start a  man meat thread, just for eye candy purposes...lol

Last time I saw something that delish was in Dom Rep. Daaayum had to try very hard not to be seen checking the bloke out as the stbx was always watching my line of sight...eeesh...LOL

Freedom to check out Man Meat!!!

And the weird ass dreams just keep coming. This time the H and I were in a different house and HE WAS PREGNANT!! LMAO! I know, I know! But that wasn't the only weird part, in my dream a young lady we know who is just now 22 I think was the one who was helping him through the pregnancy NOT me. She was sleeping with him and stayed by his side 24/7 in case he had any problems and for when he went into labor. I on the other hand was developing a r/s with one of my heart throbs LOL. We were getting very close and he was flirting with me like mad but because I am still married we kept it clean haha. We were flirting with each other a lot and he slow danced with me while holding me very close and tight to him. I had my head snuggled against his chest ad he was holding one of my hands up against his chest while we danced. He was talking to me so sweetly and tenderly and we were truly happy just to be in each others company. I never had dreams like that until all of the new problems started with my H when I discovered his pedo attraction.

I have no clue what my H being pregnant is supposed to mean or his young little personal assistant but I do understand my developing r/s with the heart throb I want the tenderness and affection he represents to me and I want it from someone I am actually attracted to and whom I know is capable of giving it freely without any expectations of sex or other favors.

I just want someone who can like and love me the way I am with all of my unique quirks and talents instead of just sex or a paycheck. In some ways I want to be someones princess because I never was special to my own father but instead a sexual object who got ostracized from her entire family when she told on him. I don't have a princess complex because I have never been treated like one but I would love to know how it feels to be cherished that way at least once before I die.

I hate how I feel when I wake up from these types of dreams because in them I feel safe and secure. I feel loved and cherished and then I have to wake up to reality. Sigh, I suppose I'll never know what being cherished really feels like but I can hope and I always have my dreams.