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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Dec 26, 2013 10:40:10 GMT
Ever since 1996 when I told my mother and her chosen family to fuck off and rot in hell she has been stalking me. The WORST part is that she employees my former husband to do her dirty work and he does it willingly as revenge on me! I'm to the point that I'm going to send them both a message to back the fuck off or I will get law enforcement involved. The only problem is that neither of them has contacted me directly, they do it through other people, so it's not like I can really get them on anything. I just want to be left to fuck alone!!!
I told her in June 1996 that from that day on she is dead to me and she should consider me dead as well because I would NEVER acknowledge her ever again for as long as I live. I have kept to my word so why after 18 years can she not just leave me alone?! I have not seen or spoken to the bitch since that day so what part of fuck off and rot in hell did she not get?!?! Maybe I should send a message to my ex's wife and tell her what he's been doing all of these years. I'm sure that will go over like a horse shit sandwich.
What is it with men carrying torches for their exes? Can't they just move on? Want to know the funniest part of this whole story? They can't find me but I have not changed a thing about the way I live. I'm still married to the same man after 19 years, my name has not changed in 19 years, I still live in the same city I have always lived in, I am still a licensed nurse in the same state I have been for 22 years so why do they have to constantly search for me? Why do they have to constantly harass my baby sister (who is not my mothers child) and harass my step-mom asking where I am? My step-mom and baby sister will never reveal anything to them about me at my request but seriously? How can they not find me? LMAO!
Maybe it's just to irritate me in an attempt to get me to contact them, who knows? I hate the stupid games people play.
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Post by Elementum on Jan 6, 2014 5:31:05 GMT
Complicated creatures, these PD-CB's... Yeah, an exBF similar, after 14 years dead to the world, weird shit. What can I tell you? Narc Feed. This one is Pro, Male /. Female, Gay, straight...you name it. Whackadoo.  Plays the "sympathy" card to draw people in. Incredible story teller = Pathological Liar. *boohoo* Multiple profiles, chatting with himself, it's pretty funny reading. Has the Admins and Mods completely hoodwinked on several sites. Kind of have to laugh. They are the "pros' after all. I can even appreciate the twisted form of amusement he gets out of that. As you know, the only way to win is not to play. But I have fun playing... lol  Wonder if it makes me a psychopath? Or a Natural? LOL...either way it's win/ win. But I rattle his cage just to see what shakes loose every once in a while...  *sniff* Oooohhh...the Scent of Fear...did you catch the strange perfume? Almost intoxicating...  |
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Jan 6, 2014 5:40:46 GMT
That's just crazy creating profiles to talk to yourself and make everyone think they are different ppl. I just want the past to stay in the past. I do not love that man and I do not love my mother. I do not want anything to do with any of them. I don't even know any of them anymore to be honest. After almost 20 years of not being involved with someone they become strangers. Why is it so hard to move on? If I have not contacted you in all of this time why would you think I want to be involved with you? Just crazy.
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Post by Elementum on Jan 6, 2014 5:51:07 GMT
Recycling? Who knows?
Maybe "reaching out" ...Narc Feed?
14 years back, have nothing negative to say about him, currently? One fucked up puppy though. Either he was nutz then and hid it well, or full blown in the present. Very odd...
Why do PD's do the whack shit they do? Hell if I know or care anymore. Got my own life and crap to deal with.
Pathological at any rate, and completely aware. As such, No guilt and No remorse when hanging time comes around ..
Should I feel guilty? I am not sure. Maybe I am psycho...but then again, I think the hundreds of people that have been duped for years may think otherwise. Dunno...who is the victim in that case? People online validating the total pathological BS of a Narc? Or the poor little pathological liar that refuses to fix his shit and is perfectly aware of it?
Should I cry? What do you think ER?
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Jan 6, 2014 15:54:14 GMT
Like Ozzy sings, no more tears. I know for me I am over the crying and wringing my hands. My pyschodar is on high alert and I will avoid them at all costs.
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Post by Elementum on Jan 7, 2014 0:49:31 GMT
Doubt that's the case. Maybe I was painted White after a while? Who knows? Or I wasn't a lousy GF? I know I wasn't. He's a brilliant chameleon though. Absolutely fantastic at it. And how does a person ever trust a pathological liar? You don't. lol Even the lies are not evil things, there is such a thing as a not "bad lie" but, to write that stuff? Is a world of pain. The Waify stuff? Needed a royal kick up the ar$e. Gently. I'm not cruel, but off the pity potty. Odd to see a person change so much. Unreal to recognize him on OOTF. Blew me away. Opposite sides of the planet, 14 years later. The chances of that are so infinitesimal. The gaslighting and a few other things. He was not strange when I knew him. Was a nice guy with a rapier wit. A little sharp around the edges, but so what? Loved his dog and was adorable to see them together. PD'd then? Would not have known, but now? Something full blown one way or the other. Were I to reach around to scratch my ass online, his butt was in the way. Not a bad thing either...odd. Hope he gets his gray matter massaged into a semblance of normalcy though. Would never wish that sort of chaos on a person. BPD's masters of illusion, but their pain is horrific. Would not want to be BPD, or any PD other than "I don't give a crap the label you stick on me" IDGCLYSOM-PD as this one allows for logic and reason. Use of a sharpened spoon to remove the heart and clarity is a delight. That's for damn sure. I don't want to be the one to get stuck while buddy works out his mommy issues again. Hell no!!! ExH , mother issues, should have flipping known. He treated her like crap. Good and crap. The guilt drove him, but he could barely stand her. FOO can be such hell. Yours? Evil incarnate. Mine, lame ass BS which I bolted from and due to boarding schools managed to miss the majority of the shit stream. lol Such elegant prose and psychoanalysis it is not. |
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Jan 7, 2014 16:45:24 GMT
I wonder what happened to your exbf to make him nuts as a fruitcake lol or was it always there simmering just out of sight. We'll never know.
My husband baffles me. I've been pouring over 30,000+ screen shots I have captured over the last few months and it's like day and night! There is not one of any perverted, disgusting or abhorrent site to be found. When I found out what he was doing 9 months ago and confronted him it took just one week for him to start visiting those sites again but now there is no sign of him doing any such thing. Almost as though it never happened and another thing, the jump drive I saved all of that nastiness to has come up missing, I am 99% certain he has destroyed it but that 1% could be that I've hidden it and can't remember where lol.
How do they do that? How do they go from full throttle to a dead stop? And how pathetic is it that I still don't trust him? I will not let him touch me in a sexual way. I hesitate to say I love you. I really don't want to be with him but I feel so ashamed to leave. WTF is wrong with ME?!
Now for some good news, hubby and I have a 2 day photoshoot coming up Wednesday and Thursday. It's a paying gig, $200 per day, and he said last night that we will use that money to get my transcripts so I can start school.
Did I just enter the twilight zone?
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Jan 7, 2014 18:20:28 GMT
and I spoke too motherfucking soon...just found some screenshots of girls he's leering at on FB...fucking bastard...
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Jan 7, 2014 19:55:05 GMT
I seriously think he gets off on reading of other pedophiles and child molesters getting caught because I find article after article that he has read online. Who is this sicko?
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Post by Elementum on Jan 8, 2014 4:36:57 GMT
Frigging sick. I don't much care for porn in general, but it's not some ethical / moral / religious what have you dilemma, I find it gross and nothing more. Just see a bunch of very mentally damaged people with no sense of self making money. BUT, the child stuff? Incest crap? Bestiality ? That is beyond frigging sick and disgusting, and that I have a problem with. Then I am murderous. Friend of mine did some research on the local teen population and the damage wrt porn due to the ease of access to it. Pretty sad what it is doing to young people. Not going to get better any time soon either. Nutz as a fruitcake, in appaearance, aware and a brilliant one at that.....yeah, would not want to spend 5 mins in that tortured gray matter. Therapy, solves many problems, but nothing anyone can do for a person other than shove them in the general direction, have to want it for themselves. Complete master of projection and gas lighting. Egh. I laugh my ass off at the comments about lying and CB's and what not, because he is playing the other side. Male/ Female/Gay / Straight/ Polyamopoopalus <-- whatever. Hilarious. It's like watching a strange life form in a petrie dish. What's it going to do next?  There you are.... |
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Jan 8, 2014 5:00:33 GMT
LMAO! I do find myself thinking and staring at my H a lot wondering what planet he fell off of.
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Post by Elementum on Jan 8, 2014 5:14:21 GMT
Yep, interspersed with being totally amazing. That is what kills me still. Unlike the PD I can't paint black and "hate" and all the other PD bs. Mine could Hate/ Love in a split second. Freaking scary shit to be around. Some stuff though? So freaking nauseating on a core level that I can't even begin to try and reconcile it. Not worth the effort. His choice to do, and mine to bail. Enough is enough. No point to waste the rest of my precious time on earth with such a blind mess. Far too screwed up. The Great Wall of Denial.  |
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