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Post by Elementum on Dec 8, 2013 4:10:56 GMT
Believe you. Write it. Will help others.
(((((ER)))))
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Dec 8, 2013 4:30:13 GMT
I have seriously thought about it and who knows maybe it will help with all the hatred and anger I feel right now. I am talking to my sister right now on facebook and I got incredibly pissed about some shit other so called "family" said about him and how he was such a great person and how he's in heaven now. Funny that just 2 weeks ago he called one of our cousins and was bragging about how amazing his son is and how great his children are. Our cousin asked him, what about your girls? He clammed up so she kept going telling him how great my sister is for taking care of his mother and sister until they died and how smart my sisters children are. He got so pissed off he never said a word he just hung up on her.
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Post by Elementum on Dec 8, 2013 5:38:35 GMT
yeeesh...write the book for yourself. And others, truth is truth. Sometimes it's not pretty, but it doesn't have to be.
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Dec 8, 2013 13:56:59 GMT
You know why I hesitate to write my story? Because I relive all of the hurt and then all of the anger, resentment and hatred flood over me and I feel like I'm going to drown. I know writing is cathartic and I know I'm feeling angry, resentful and hatred now but somehow those things left unsaid don't feel as though they have as much power. I am terrified that once they are brought to light there will be fallout that I can't handle.
I think I will write the story but I will only share it with a few select people. Only people that I'm fairly certain I can trust.
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Post by Elementum on Dec 8, 2013 15:18:58 GMT
((((ER)))))
Only you know what is best for You. Trust, that is the delicate one. Can understand why you would not want to talk about it though. One thing, none of anything that was done to us or even we foolishly allowed as adults ever defines us. Especially anything from childhood. It's what we do that defines who we are. My take on it at any rate.
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Dec 9, 2013 19:24:21 GMT
Here's some of the crap that's being posted about my sperm donor and OMG the convo I had with the stupid mil last night...she pissed me off but I was cool I just shut her down instead of cussing her out.
This little blurb was posted by my cousin who was also a victim of his...
"My cousin's wife called a little bit ago. My Uncle Joe (Mom's brother) passed away a couple of hours ago. He was a happy dude with an awesome chuckle. He's the black sheep of our family, and I know some of them feel no loss, but I do. He and I were close over the last 10 years and I will miss our phone chats. I'm feeling so blue for my Mother. My grandmother's funeral was yesterday, same day as her sister's funeral 2 years ago. I love you, Mom. ️Also thinking of my cousins, M. C. and T. G. I love you both!"
Notice she mentions my brother and sister but not a friggin mention of me, no care for how I feel and definitely no love...whatever bitch.
This is from an EX-wife of my oldest cousin who is 10+ years older than me, a drunk, a whore and a biker tramp who hates my guts for reasons known only to her but I suspect it is because she, along with the others, believe I lied about the years of abuse I suffered at my fathers hands.
"Oh my word, Sis!! I am at a loss for words~Joe was one of a kind, always jovial and who could ever forget that laugh and mischievous grin....I am soooo sorry for you and all the family. Give Annie, Bobo and Tia my love~~Prayers for strength and comfort for youse all"
Yeah, go suck down another couple of fifths of whiskey then go ride your harley, I hope you wipeout and die cunt so you can spend eternity with "Mr. Jovial"...
This one here just blows my mind but I suspect the only reason she loved him so much is because he left her and my brother (her husband) a house, land and a boat while me and my sister got JACK SHIT!
We have lost another wonderful man to God. He was my father~in~law (Papa Joe) He will be missed! — feeling sad.
And I should mention that his sister (my Auntie) whose 2 daughters were sexually abused by him is mourning his death as well and is just overwhelmed with grief.
So, I ask am I the one who is mentally ill by NOT singing my fathers praises and glorifying him by placing him in an ivory tower now that he's dead? Did I miss something in 4 1/2 decades that says we are to praise child rapist and wife beaters? I think I missed the fucking memo on that one!!
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Post by Elementum on Dec 10, 2013 5:05:32 GMT
Yep, society in general seems to have missed the memo. These freaks have the highest rate of recidivism. Time in jail only makes them better at hiding their crimes.
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Dec 10, 2013 5:22:47 GMT
Yep, it's been proven beyond doubt that they cannot and will not be made well. The only answer to their particular "illness" imo is to be burned alive. At least my father is burning in hell now and in that I feel justice. Besides, God can punish him far worse than anything he would have suffered on earth and in hell it never ever ever stops.
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Post by Eleanor Rigby on Dec 16, 2013 3:13:46 GMT
The old bastard was cremated today. The plan was once he was crispy fried that my brother was going to take him to our great uncle's house and spread his filthy ashes at the old family homestead. Our Uncle said no! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Now my brother thinks he can just bring him to our home town and bury him with his parents. That ain't gonna happen either cause there is no plot for him and if he thinks he can just dig up our grandparents and toss him in with one of them then he better think again. The only surviving child of our grandparents is our Auntie and unless my brother or his dear old dads' worthless, greedy wife plan to pay for one of them to be exhumed then dear little brother will just have to take the old bastard back home with him. I guess they could drink him as herbal tea since they love the fucker so much.
Oh, as if anyone cared, the old bastard is not having a service. Um, the only reason he did that is because he THOUGHT it would hurt me and my baby sister BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Once again the joke is on him!!! All of this info now confirms to me that he left nothing to us and gave it all to our brother. He can have it because there is NOTHING I want that ever belonged to that fucker. I guess he thought I gave a shit about his money and his stuff but I have lived my entire life as poor as dirt so I'm not missing anything I never had anyway. What an arrogant prick but then he always was but like I said the joke is on him. I hope he can hear and see me from hell and see that I do not care about him in fact I can't care any less than I do now because there are ZERO feelings for him. You can't have negative don't give a shit LMMFAO!!!!! let's see, ER can't give a shit less about the old bastard but let's see if I can poop something out......NOPE......don't give a shit minus don't give a shit just can't happen BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Oh the end of this year has turned into one hell of an awesome ending. I can start 2014 without that fucker in the world and damn what an awesome world it has become!!
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